CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR

On Sunday, May 2, 2010, I received a phone call from a church friend from my formal church informing me that one of the youth, now an adult, was kill and that the funeral is going to be held on Monday, May 3, 2010.

I kept wondering what excuses Pool will give to God when God calls Pool to give an account for his’ actions before he is sentence to eternal damnation.

I kept wondering did Pool repent from his’ sins so his’ soul was saved.

My friend and I try to avoid speaking the P word. What is the P word you may ask? The P word is PATIENCE.

Why do we avoid the P word? Well, to put it plain and simple, once you pray for patience, another life challenge is likely on the way to strengthen you.

The P word is a good thing, for patience:

• Corrects our behaviors.
• Protects us from dangers unseen.
• Helps us to appreciate and celebrate in due season.
• Teaches us to provide maturity in areas in our lives where we are weak.
• Helps us to gain knowledge.
• Enables us to tolerate others rather than be selfish and think only of ourselves.

Most folks would say that the P word gives us wisdom, too. I am not so sure about that.

How many times have you said something in the past and the words come back into your mind to literally haunt you? I mean every letter and every vowel of each word – replaying over and over inside your head. It is such a grievous feeling of condemnation that it affects you in every possible way. There are many times through these life challenges that I have cried and wept. What is the difference between crying and weeping? I really do not know the politically correct answer. I can only say, for me crying is a reaction to an emotion. Weeping, for me, is the gut wrenching, down-to-the-cord-of-the-pain anguish. Weeping is when you do not know what to do; you have absolutely no control over the circumstances of what is about to occur in that moment. It is as if you are in an action movie…but everything is in slow motion. You’re there…slowly taking in the drama – the hurt – the pain – the suffering – taking it all in and you have no control to stop it – none whatsoever.

As a minister, I have a covenant with God. My covenant responsibilities are to take care of God’s sheep. One responsibility is to provide the spiritual and moral tools to help anyone make good decisions that will not spiritually hinder him or her. Spiritually and morally, I am accountable to each person that I encounter. In addition, I am prophet, so I cannot mess us – oh the pressure! I will be in jeopardy of losing my soul to hell if I do not honor my covenant as a minister and prophet. This is why I do not take my “calling” as a joke nor do I operate in my flesh when I prophesized.